like seriously,

WHATS WRONG
with stupid aunties in our cultured society nowadays.

1. They practically RAMP into you while you wanna alight from the train.
2. They remove their shoes comfortably and cross a foot over, underneath the other lap.
(p/s : with a stinky nude stocking) IN CLASS.
3. They prevent you from leaving your seat first, for the sake of leaving themself first.
4. They PUSH and SQUEEZE their way through when the bus have YET to reach the interchange.
5. They PUSH people infront of them OUT of the lift, oh, in case they get caught btw the lift's door.

SERIOUSLY, THEY NEED THAT ORANGE LION TO TEACH THEM MANNERS & COURTESY.

i'm really, EXTREMELY, pissed with such aunties -.-
oh well, i dont refer to ALL of them, just a particular few.

sigh.

DEPLETION OF COURTESY.

fuck them.

_|_

sorry for being crude,
but i AM annoyed.

f

11:31 PM
said i'm okay,
but i know how to lie.

what if the world ended tomorrow?

i suddenly felt that i've had enough of life.
its fucking tiring.

f

12:07 AM
said i'm okay,
but i know how to lie.

so much to say, but its better if i don't.
maybe one day both of us should stop & reflect,
on what we've done and what we've said.
i do miss you at times, really.

p/s : each and everyone of us want things to be done in our ways.
face this fact. you feel that you've been hurt, what about you hurting me?

f

11:55 AM
said i'm okay,
but i know how to lie.

i trusted in love,
i trusted in friendship,
i trusted in dreams,
i swear i bestowed complete trust on these.
yet afterall, over and over again,
all good things come to an end.

there's nothing left for me to trust.
or rather, i don't trust myself anymore.

FML.

f

11:27 PM
said i'm okay,
but i know how to lie.

i wasn't anyone's good friend from the beginning.
explains how i'm being treated. sigh.

:(

谢谢你们那些爱过我伤害过我的人
成长的路总是需要快乐悲伤的牺牲
不怕挫折我也不怕结局结尾太残忍
只要活著还能说著这一切都不算什麼

谢谢此刻那首曾经让我感动流悌的歌
独自一人听著哼著学会了成全舍得
我不怕苦我只怕这回忆想起太美了

一闸眼了时间不等人
我们都成了那所谓的大人

f

2:38 AM
said i'm okay,
but i know how to lie.

谢和弦 - 过来人


(＊) 我們要學會珍惜　要珍惜愛情
不要把真心當作遊戲
我們要學會珍惜　要珍惜自己
不要再讓下個愛你的人傷心

(＃) 還記不記得　那天好聚好散
我好心要遞面紙給你　你卻愛面子不拿
我們之間　還有多少心裡的話
三杯黃湯下肚之後　再繼續說吧

(＋) 與其說　我們都是過來人
不如說　我們都曾經當過爛人
不得不承認　我們都不是乖寶寶　好學生
可是不代表　不能進化成更好的人

(％) 一起努力過曾經追求過的夢
不管過了多久　都牢記在心中
不需再多說　一個擁抱就夠
我的眼神　只有你懂　它代表什麼

(＆) 一起在歲月裡面酌不完的酒
不管現在未來我們成不成功
此刻的擁有　是我的身邊
還有你們這些朋友

(重唱　＃,＋,％,＆,＊)

不需再多說　一個擁抱就夠
我的眼神　只有你懂　它代表什麼
此刻的擁有　是我的身邊
還有你們這些朋友


♥  ♥  ♥

the reason why i would stay up til now,
is because of a near 50 episode 終極三國.
and because up til ep 48, it still makes me tear.
and i learnt smth from this episode today.

family > love > brotherhood > friends.

why must reality be so cruel!
hope xiu will be with ah xiang,
hope guan yu will be with diao chan,
hope zhugeliang will be with guigui,
& its pretty nice to see all of them in the nx episode.
cant wait !!!!

i'm so gonna rewatch all the zhong ji dramas!

good night world.
sucks to have work on sat.

you will never know how much you're missed.
its silly, but i miss the times you made my days,
with mere three simple words,
and its not even imy or ilu or such.
its nice to be remembered once in a while,
don't you think so?

:)

f.

2:34 AM
said i'm okay,
but i know how to lie.

Its pretty amazing how each time i thought of you,
songs you sent automatically plays.

coincidence or fate ?

but everything should remain as a beautiful memory.
cause we're not meant to be :)

f.

3:49 PM
said i'm okay,
but i know how to lie.

東城衛

錯過
(click here to listen)

詞曲:脩編曲:東城衛

回憶盲目的在盤旋年華也隨季節凋謝

戲終落幕人已散場夢醒了何必再傻

尋找過多少個依賴離開幾次幸福的期待

才會明白愛不重來錯過了別太傷感

一值走卻不停的徘迴找不到最初的起點

是否我們都慢慢學會放手讓幸福走遠

愛是別離的美失去了才懂的多珍貴

每個人有多少次機會後悔就再愛一遍

一瞬間回過首你卻已經擦肩而過

錯在不夠勇敢到盡頭

時間麻木的在向前青春難載歲月更迭

轉瞬之間愛已消逝心碎了誰會聽見

一值走卻不停的徘迴找不到最初的起點

是否我們都慢慢學會放手讓幸福走遠

愛是別離的美失去了才懂的多珍貴

每個人有多少次機會後悔就再愛一遍

一瞬間回過首你卻已經擦肩而過

錯在不夠勇敢~

愛是別離的美失去了才懂的多珍貴

每個人有多少次機會後悔就再愛一遍

一瞬間回過首你卻已經擦肩而過

錯在不夠勇敢到盡頭

紅顏已成白髮

i met, i dreamt, i missed you.
no one makes my day anymore.

f.

2:34 PM
said i'm okay,
but i know how to lie.

do onto others what you want others to do onto you.
i understand and realized i'm pretty much a bad girl.
so much in my mind, but yet, no idea where to begin.

forget it.
you're selfish. you only think about whats the best for you, not us.
fuck, stay strong. i shouldn't be weeping over stupid histories.
unappreciated efforts gone to waste. how silly i used to be.
its alright. i'm so used to getting hurt, i'll just take whatever thats left.
afterall, nothing's gonna let you understand what i want.

i had a great weekend.
drove huijia to west coast mac on fri night to mug.
successfully covered absorption & marginal costing.
then we left ard 1am cause there were classes on sat afternoon.

woke up early on saturday,
headed to the bank to do some personal banking.
i was pretty much happy cause there's a cutie who served me!
met wl at adm, went to town tgt. had long john for lunch.
then headed to class, huijia joined us shortly (:

law is VERY, VERY boring. drats! i don't like the teacher.
a very draggy lesson ended at 5pm on such a wonderful sat.
went ard town to shop for eva's present,
got her a clutch from Guess! hope she likes it!
then trained home. caught sanguo ep 47 immediately.
i hope xiu & ah xiang can be tgt !!!!! :(
sho sad.

then decided to bring my family to novena's Udders for ice cream!
so we headed out ard 9.30pm, and we had alot of mao shan wang durian,
kopi-estacy, for dessert! :D then HSH.

shortly, i went out again, at 11pm+,
yeah. huijia & her bf drove us to marina barrage!
i know, its insanely mad to fly a kite at 1am+,
but its the fun that counts right! (:
& it was a super duper windy night!
slacked til 2.30am with cl, wl, otry, hj & yl!
then HSH... got home ard 3.30am.
went to bed and in no time, wide awake again!

met huijia with my bro at wdls platform ard 8am,
then met the birthday girl at cck's platform!
and we headed to harbourfront!
had mac bf, and adrian joined us :)

yeah! we were heading to Sentosa for a sunday morning getaway.
and also to acc the birthday girl (:
played vball, took alot of photos, chit chat!
caught up abit with adrian too.

due to some particular time constraint,
we went back to vivo near lunchtime,
and they decided on long john for lunch!
then hj, adrian and i secretly went to buy a cake for eva from secret recipe!
BANANA CHOCOLATE CAKE. (Y)
:) HAPPY 21ST BDAE TO YOU EVA !!!! LOVE YOU OH!

and all of us headed home wearily.
and i instantly knocked out after washing up.
i couldnt even be bothered to take a bath,
yeah, i was THIS tired. haha.

oh well, dreadful monday again.
HOPE I'LL HAVE TIME FOR HAI PAI TIAN XIN,
& XIA YI ZHAN XING FU @ work tml ! :D

til then.

f.

11:25 PM
said i'm okay,
but i know how to lie.

Hello, its been some time since i've last blogged!
classes have commenced and it have been a tiring week for me.
despite having nothing much to do at work,
attending a three hour lecture before bedtime isn't really ideal.
sleepiness, restlessness and boredom sets in.
however, each time i try my best to concentrate,
by reminding myself how tough ACCA is.

performance management isn't that tough so far,
however, the expected-to-be-far-more-easier law is fucking boring!
i guess it all boils down to the type of lecturer who conveys the lessons.
i used to recall how fun law was in poly, with dennis sim & ruth kumar.
we had simple hangman games, interesting stories, and not,
the current "all about government stories" or "all about the lecturer himself" crap.
arghhhh. nineteen lessons to go. i hope my memory doesn't fail me at this point of time.

apart from studies, work is getting superrrrr routined & mundane.
what's worse is, i've seen myself procrastinating much more than before.
i know this is bad, yet the lazy part of me prevailed -.-
i promised myself to turn in at 10pm on the nights before i have classes,
but all i noticed were turning in at 1am, 2am kind of thing.
which eventually lead to more oversleeping occasions. terrible.

so what has been keeping me busy lately?
apart from classes, majority of my time goes into facebook & dramas.
i have to admit that i'm an avid tw drama lover!
nonetheless, dear friends, please catch Autumn's Concerto (下一站，幸福.)
its damn good i swear. and... somehow i made up this equation:-

雨爱 + 够爱 = 泪了.

窗外的泪滴一滴滴累积

屋内的湿气像储存爱你的记忆

真希望雨能下不停

雨爱的秘密能一直延续

我相信我将会看到彩虹的美丽

你听见了吗我为你唱的这首歌
是为了要证明我为了你存在的意义

星空在闪烁像你的眼泪
悄悄划过当你放开了手
离开的时候有没有一点舍不得我

泪光在闪烁而我的眼泪忍住
不敢坠落我还留在黑暗中守候
你却已经远远离开我

有过的快乐我都记得
回忆还旋转着爱怎么停了
我们都累了.

bleh alright enough of music.
pangkang in one and half hour's time.
west coast mac laters,
classes tml, sentosa on sunday! :D
wooo i need my sleep. til then!

with love,
f.

2:16 PM
said i'm okay,
but i know how to lie.

Happy 21st Birthday To Me !

f

2:42 AM
said i'm okay,
but i know how to lie.

GOODBYE 2009, HELLO 2010.

somehow its pretty much queer to move on from december to january.
its not like moving on in consecutive months (aug to sept, sept to oct).
its like 12 to 01. as if the reset button was hit !
oh well. anw, i just want to pen down my achievements for 2009,
and not forgetting the resolutions for 2010!

In 2009, I've :-
1. completed & earned my diploma in acc.
2. gotten my driving license!!! :D
3. made many better friends.
4. gotten a super slack avg paying job nearby.
5. saved up !
6. stayed happy most of the time :)
7. succeeded in shedding a few kilos with my mum's guidance.

In 2010, I've :-
1. to shed MUCH MORE kilos.
2. to work hard & complete half of my ACCA.
3. to keep up the saving habit.
4. to cherish & love my friends & family more.
5. to stay happy.
6. to sleep at 10pm, wake at 7am so as not to be 1 or 2mins late for work.
7. to commence adulthood.

i'm pretty much excited yet on the other hand worried,
for my 21st tml !!!! alright, for now i gotta get SLEEP.
good nights world.

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL FRIENDS & LOVED ONES :D

with love,
ferinna.

5:45 AM
said i'm okay,
but i know how to lie.