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Saturday, November 28, 2009

troubled.


no backup plans for my bdae venue.
turning down seven people on a saturday night.
having irritating dry cough.
wasting my time thinking why would people guess my pw.
looking at myself from other's perspective.
i feel that i've changed, for the worse.
don't ask me why cause i can't give you a reason either.


work is piling, studies are approaching.
i get tired easily, growing fatter too.
oh, i think i lost the livelihood in me,
at least for now.


its not easy to be me, don't try.
how nice if i can just sleep on.


oh, genting was hell fun with my family,
although we didnt have much activities,
but taking a gazillion photos with them,
teaching my mum play daidee,
and ended up playing all night was humorous.


i've found out what type of guy i'm attracted to.
met him thrice. although feifei names him as
a typical paikia, but i dont care, he is cute!
reddish brown emo hair, small eyes, chubby round face,
green striped hoodie, berms, tattoo-ed right calf,
nice pair of sneakers.
not forgetting the two direct eye contacts made
.
each time i go genting, i've a different guy hooked in my mind lol damn it.


apart from those fantasizing stupid acts,
my family and i visited the temple located beneath genting highlands.
its like as though you've walked into heaven.
you'll get to see monkey god, zhubajie, buddha, guanyin,
and even the individual gates of hell, from 1st level all the way til 18th.
pretty gross sculptures & mannequins.
i miss the super shiok weather there.
not forgetting the remarkable scenery views.


why is singapore so hot ?!
i almost literally melted when i stepped out of office today.
blah. time for my daily dose of drug.
good night to you all.



One awkward silence and two hopes
you cry yourself to sleep.
staying up, waiting by the phone,
and all I want for this year is for you,
to dedicate your last breathe to me,
before you bury yourself alive.


Don't come home for Christmas,
You're the last thing I wanna see,
underneath the tree.
Merry Christmas, I could care less.


f

10:49 PM
said i'm okay,
but i know how to lie.


Wednesday, November 25, 2009



if only i have the courage to ask,


f

11:14 AM
said i'm okay,
but i know how to lie.


Monday, November 23, 2009


what could be better than,
having classes commence on your 21st bdae?
yup, my first acca class starts on 6 jan :(
went to town to register on saturday,
with mum, huijia & bf and wl.
afterwhich went to vivo with mum & wl to shop :)


slept through my sunday again,
woke up ard 3pm, bathed and prepared,
went out, met wl, went to bugis to buy chewy jrs.
cabbed to marina barrage,
for dear's night picnic :)


it was a super windy night.
many families flew kites !
dear, hope you liked the presents :D
sorry for nt being able to stay for long.


blah, how nice if i dont have to come to work today.
then i'll have the whole week to myself.
heading for Genting tonight :)
cant wait, to enjoy the super good weather there.
i'll be back on friday night,
dont miss me ppl! :x


can someone define true friends for me?
sometimes i really feel that i'm my own best friend.




I just want to be better that your head's only medicine.


f


10:10 AM
said i'm okay,
but i know how to lie.


Thursday, November 19, 2009


even before i embark on acca,
i can already feel the pressure.
sometimes its really tiring to be me.
so tired that i really want to shout fuck off.
and leave this world. damn it.




finally i get to close my eyes.
good night stupid world.


f

11:23 PM
said i'm okay,
but i know how to lie.


Wednesday, November 18, 2009


make time for me,
i'm so exhausted.




Anberlin's true faith.


f

11:00 PM
said i'm okay,
but i know how to lie.


Tuesday, November 17, 2009


how much dyou remember about childhood?
what did you do when you were three ?
who are the friends whom you see daily.
things that you do in playschool/childcare/kindergarden.


heh, surprisingly a childcare friend added me on fb last night.
we had a great time catching up on msn :)
its really, really pretty reminiscing,
about what we used to do when we were all so young.


not only we remembered each other,
even the teachers, classmates, activities then.


i remember when i was three,
cause my dad had to go work like darn early.
i'd always be the first to reach the school,
as early as standing outside the school,
waiting for a teacher called Mrs Anthony,
to open the gates and all.
and without fail, i'll scream and cry like mad cause my dad is leaving.


after classmates flowed in,
we had breakfast ard 7.30am.
before eating, we had to sing this song.
i rmb abit, it goes like this.
"thank you god for the food we eat,
thank you god for the clothes we wear,
..............
thank you god for everything.
join me teachers, join me friends.
lao shi qing chi xiao peng you men qing chi.
yellowrum, indiedum, sapudeh-um"

SOMETHING LIKE THAT LOL.
the last two lines are in chinese & indian respectively.
its like showing respect to our classmates & teachers,
by asking them to start eating together :p
oh ya, my brother went through all these too,
wonder if he still remembers though :O


after breakfast, we had chinese lessons,
drawing lessons, playing puzzles during freetime,
math lessons, music lessons and more !
then we had to take a bath ard noon time.
and then lunch, then bedtime!
yeah we had naps, and there's this indian teacher,
Mrs Nanda, she would use those yellow & black stripes penciel,
with a red tip at the back,
to knock our knuckles if we wouldn't be good and slp!
hahaha.


after our nap, all of us would wake up for tea,
and after tea, we would have activities like,
going to the playground near the childcare centre,
water-play, watching movies/cartoons, etc!
til 5pm, then our parents would come & pick us home!
heh, kinda miss those good old days.
no worries & yet so carefree.


in no time, all of us have walked through like 1/3 of our lives.
time really flies (:
i'm anticipating what would my life be down the road.
heh. oh, my healty diet for a week has proven results!! :D
though i've not lost like alot of weight,
but at least, its a good start! :D


alright, shall find smth else to do.
oh, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU DEAR!
even though we might not be meeting anytime soon,
but still, you know you have my deepest blessings !
stay happy and pretty alright (:
hope you enjoy what your friends have for you today :D
love you !!!




if i ask you to stay,
would you show me the way?


f

9:17 AM
said i'm okay,
but i know how to lie.


Monday, November 16, 2009

a pretty tiring weekend.
drove out alone, like finally :p
went to pick wl & met feifei at khatib's mac.
then went to OCC for pool !
cl & otrysia joined us too :D
went for supper at sembawang after that,
then hsh.


worked on sat,
joanne gave me a lift home :D
watched drama til 6 plus,
prepared & ate, then went out ard 7 plus.
met feifei & larry at cwp.
2012 at 8.15pm!
its a very remarkable movie.
two thumbs up for it.
there were points of time,
when i felt as though i was on a thrill ride.
tight clasps, heart throbs. heh.


after movie, took a train down to amk.
cabbed to chompchomp.
met wl, cl & otrysia! heh.
slacked and talked while they had their food :o
then went to seletar camp !
it was a pretty great eye opener for me,
cause i've nv been into any camps before,
let alone knowing there're actually ktvs & pubs within :x


so we went to this ktv,
drank & sang :x
was pretty fun luh.
except for the terrible smoke stench.
and oh, i've learnt how to play darts !
although its a anyhow-throw thingy haha!
but it was fun luh :D


reached home like near 4am,
and slept til sunday evening.
woke up ard 7pm, had dinner,
then drama! :D
bleh, alright i'm off for a mini meeting!
til then!




With every sun that sets i am feeling more,
like a stranger on a foreign shore.



f



9:30 AM
said i'm okay,
but i know how to lie.


Thursday, November 12, 2009

have you ever thought of being someone else?
are you happy with the way life is path out for you atm?
dyou feel that there's so much stuffs you wanna do,
yet not having the ability to do so ?


being awake at this hour sets me thinking.
different people have different perspectives.
not mentioning names, but you know who you are,
some said, my life is pretty much miserable.
some said, i'm very fortunate.
some others beg to differ from the former.
so many types of view,
of which i actually feel?


it all boils down to something i believe in,
which is, how you put yourself in my shoes and interpret.


of course, casting aside the everyday emotions and moods.
i'm pretty much helpless at times. or rather, lost.
i cant figure how my parents lived up to now.
because i cant see myself in 20 years down the road.
what will become of me?


are these signs of fatigue and boredom of life?
okay ppl this is not an emo post.
i'm just thinking deeply.
wondering how would my life be 20 years later?


i think i seriously need some huge motivation.
to keep up with this mundane life.
to keep up with this ever-changing world.


i always fall in love with an open door,


f


11:32 PM
said i'm okay,
but i know how to lie.


Wednesday, November 11, 2009


This post is dedicated to two important ppl in my life!

1. Peok Jian Hui
Dearest brother, who has been there for me when i was heartbroken.
Missed the good old days when we were in the same class,
back then, same CCA too, forever going to his condo,
to play table tennis, bicycles & pool ! Oh, his mum makes v nice jellies too! :x
HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY TO YOU BROTHER.
even though you're at a far-away island,
but i hope you'll stay happy and not being so emo everyday okay!
LOVE YOU!


2. Wen Mingmei
Sis ABMS. Its nice to see that you enjoyed at your party last sat :)
Been through pretty much with her after my breakup!
meet up soon okay sis, lets go shoppinggg :D
HAPPY 21ST TO YOU SIS,
LOVE YOU MUACKS.


ONCE AGAIN,
HAPPY BDAE TO BOTH OF YOU (:


with love,


f

4:42 PM
said i'm okay,
but i know how to lie.


Tuesday, November 10, 2009

been pretty busy over the weekend.
went to msia with wl, cl & otrysia on fri night.
we had meefen & lok lok! like finally :x
damn, i got tricked into eating a piece of...
...CHICKEN BACKSIDE -.-


had work on saturday..
damn, til my big boss next visit,
i've gotta come almost every saturday,
cause my boss have yet to make it official.
zzzz.


attended sis's 21st on saturday night.
had HTHT with perper :p
slacked around & helped sis to pack up.
then cabbed back to wdls.
jio-ed feifei & alvin & perper for mj!
wooo. played til 6 in the morning,
everybody was dozing off but i was wide awake!


took 969 home, slept for few hours,
went to town with mummy on sunday afternoon.
went shopping ! :D
andand, i bought a FOX pullover,
it'll definitely come in handy for my genting trip :D
hmmm, i got myself a pair of earrings too (:
then took a train back to adm, dad picked us up.
brother just came back from Batam,
and we went for dinner at SSC.


my desktop died on me on sunday.
luckily feifei came over to fix everything sweeswee for me !
thanks alot bestie :D
spent a few hours on my comp,
went to bed only ard 1am plus.


had lunch earlier on with wl & feifei @ cwp.
stupid wl laughed at my lunch.
because it was all veggies ! :(
my mum has came up with a diet plan for me,
shall try it! blah.


damn, i keep getting cuts all over myself -.-
alright, time for afternoon nap, yawns!
good night world :p



CHRISTMAS IS COMING :D


I don't just want to be a footnote,
in someone else's happiness.


f


12:22 PM
said i'm okay,
but i know how to lie.


Thursday, November 5, 2009

this is a pretty much random post.
might be silly but still,
a BIG THANK YOU to all these ppl.
you guys complete my life (:

in no running sequence..

1. Angeline
Despite having some gaps in btw our lives, over some stupid matters, i'm really very glad that break ups brought us together again! Thanks for being there for me whenever i needed someone. Even though we might not contact each other off and on, but you know that you're missed & loved!

2. Weilong
Thanks for the memories (: I was really happy when we were together, and really wished that we would last, haha. Nevertheless, we're pretty doing much fine as friends :D Hope you can get tgt with her soon, bleh. Best wishes!


3. Larry
A guy who's forever complaining about NS. Thanks piggie, for accompanying me like almost everyday, be it audition or smsing :p really appreciate loads! POP soon alright ! (:


4. Huijia
My bestie at work. Gossip/Chat/Msn partner lol! Thanks girl, for wishing me morning daily :p
Even though we weren't such great friends back then in school, but ITP brought us together to date. I'm glad to have you in my life! :D


5. Eva
Same goes to you girl! Though we got closer only during our last year of school, but i've definitely learnt alot from you! You're a very strong woman, *respects*. Not to mention, forever gossiping over common people we dislikes *SMILES*. No matter what, HJ & I will support you all the way alright! Importantly, STAY HAPPY OK! loves.


6. Kahmeng
FEIFEI. My bestie. Thanks for being there like forever haha. Though we started talking like after 23498712 years , think was through audition lol, but really. Thanks for the midnight mac suppers, movies and dinners tgt!


7. Meng Choon
Shixiong! I've found an AVA badge & photo last night. So memorable! We were all so young and happy back then, no worries except for studies and fixing OHPs, sending equipments daily to classes, worrying if the National Anthem would be screwed, always standing by, ready to run to the control room/general office/ava room to get stuffs. Heh. Thanks for always driving us out too. Ice creams, dinners, roti pratas, movies, shopping! and for the times i went to your house to play survival project, pristontale after school! HAHA.


8. Genhao
GOLDFISH. HAHA. Thanks for being such a nice guy! Same goes, having dinners, movies. And I'm still using the pen cum thumbdrive! Jiayou for your signalling stuffs and stop staying in on weekends so that we can go out for more singing and shopping and eating! Heh.


9. Jianhui
PEOK. you were the one beside me days after i fell out of love lol. Thanks for being there bro, even though i'm not really always there for you. But I will be there if you ever need me alright! I'm just a street across your condo! How i wish we could turn back time, go back to the days when we played bikes, table tennis, pool, with junhong & sikai & yeseng! :)


10. Mingmei
SIS ABMS. though i'm forever wishing you happy sistersary on every 7th and you seem to have forgotten about it, but NVM, i will still love you so much. Hope you have a blast on your coming 21st this saturdayyy :D MUACKS.


11. Rouhui
Sis, although we haven't been talking for quite some time, but i really want to tell you, you look very tired! dont club so much alright, take good care of yourself. and dont be so emo luh! post something happier on your blog :p love you!


12. Kwong
KUKU. i love you and you know it :D Hope you find a pretty GF soon alright! Enjoy your poly days, and stay happyyyy. Meet up soon alright!


13. Stanley Ho
a bro who loves to talk cock alot! very jovial and nice person. i've gained such a good bro outta bowling haha. love you too ah! date me for dinner soon leh :p


14. Louis
BUD! thanks for sharing all the nice nice songs with me. stay happy as a chao keng soldier okay! :D


15. Ntoh
This guy owes me two tubs of Ben's & Jerry's ! someone who used to make my days (: Thanks alot, hope you get your license soon hahahaha.


16. Kaihong
HPY! I found a card you gave me two years back :p still rmb? Heh, it was pretty reminiscing looking at that two hippos. Days at baoling, with you and MJkorkor. Thanks for taking care of me back then! Hope you're doing well now (:


17. Jasper Soh
XIAOFEI. though for some reasons i dont know why we aren't keeping in touch after graduation, but thanks for being my bestie in school :) missed the times we rushed for lectures, copy notes like siaozzx, deciding on wanton mee or chicken rice for lunch, chiong-ed projects til late, yes just the two of us :p Jiayou for your degree!!!


18. Alvin
BOSS. i'm still used to calling you this lah hahaha. thanks for inviting me to join wAltz. through it, i got to know many other auditioners! Heh, thanks for the sms-es, movies and listening to me crap on MSN :x


19. Jamie
My childhood friend. Thanks for the yearly xmas cards :D Hope you and your sis are doing fine! studying hard i supposed? heh, hope to see you soon, next year, at my 21st :D


20. RS
KOR. hope you and Yuka stay happy everyday :D FASTER get your butt back to SG & take photos with me and dear! hahahaha. I found a neoprint we took like 2 years back i think, i'll post it on fb after i scan it to my pc! HAHAHA. Thanks for always being there for me too. I will never forget the days kor bringing me to gems classes because i might lose my way in school! HAHA. love you (:


Nevertheless, I'll like to thank my Dad, who gives me morning call everyday without fail, to wake me up for work. It something really very thoughtful. And also, my Mum, for the delicious dishes you prepare for dinner everyday! and my brother, Nichol, though we are forever arguing & quarreling, but i guess its the blood in us that we don't bear grudges overnight! HEH. i love my family :D


Okays, end of my post. I've no idea why i'm doing this but I just wanna say this to all of my friends, THANK YOU, FER LOVES YOU ALL. kthxbai.




f

10:01 AM
said i'm okay,
but i know how to lie.




and when it rains,
on this side of town,
it touches everything.
just say it again and mean it,
we don't miss a thing.


you made yourself a bed,
at the bottom of the blackest hole.
and convinced yourself that it's not the reason,
you don't see the sun anymore.


and oh, oh how could you do it?
oh i, i never saw it coming,
oh, oh i need the ending,
so why can't you stay just long enough to explain.


take your time,
take my time.




take these chances to turn it around.


f

12:13 AM
said i'm okay,
but i know how to lie.


Wednesday, November 4, 2009

i'm pretty much fascinated by,
how people around us change.
be it for the better or worse.
its simply way beyond one's expectations.


one can never know who'll be the next,
its very prodigious.
oh well, we ourselves could prolly be next too.
sometimes i wonder, what's ahead for me in life.
everything seemed to be destined.


oh, i'm pretty much amazed by the readers of this blog.
because i write so much rubbish and nonsense here.
least did i expect there are actually readers lol !
thank you ppl for reading,
and i'm sorry if i bore you :B


blah, goods are here,
gotta do work! :(



Its time for us to make a move,
as we're asking one another to change.
Maybe i'm not ready,
but i'll try for your love.


f


11:52 AM
said i'm okay,
but i know how to lie.


Sunday, November 1, 2009

I want to live where soul meets body,
And let the sun wrap its arms around me,
And bathe my skin in water cool and cleansing,
And feel, feel what it's like to be new,
'Cause in my head there's a Greyhound station,
Where I send my thoughts to far-off destinations.
So they may have a chance of finding a place where,
They're far more suited than here.


I cannot guess what we'll discover,
When we turn the dirt with our palms cupped like shovels,
But I know our filthy hands can wash one another's,
And not one speck will remain.


And I do believe it's true that there are roads left in both of our shoes,
But if the silence takes you then I hope it takes me too.
So brown eyes I hold you near, 'cause you're the only song I want to hear.
A melody softly soaring through my atmosphere.



I was searching for some legal document,
when i stumbled upon pictures i tried to forget.
and that's how this idea was drilled into my head.

But there's no blame for how our love did slowly fade,
And now that it's gone, it's like it wasn't there at all.


f

2:39 AM
said i'm okay,
but i know how to lie.


Ferinna

I used to be love drunk.

You can call me Fer.
D.O.B: 6 January 1989.
Horoscope: Capricorn.
SP's Diploma in Accountancy.
Occupation: FT Accountant,
PT ACCA Student

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