it has been some time i felt so fucked up.













someone, tell me what is right and wrong.
why do i feel this way?





the world is so fucked.

hello world, its another day.
was kinda busy in the morning with work (like finally,)
and now, im waiting for my lunch :D
meanwhile, played bejeweled.
DAMN. i cant break my high score :(
well, just took a personality quiz & here are the results o.o

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting,
but you are really hiding your true self.
Your friends love you because you are a good listener.
They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people.
You don't judge a book by its cover,
so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style.
This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well,
before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex.
In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive,
so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there,
away from the classroom.
Deep inside you want to start working,
earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income.
Knowing what you like to do is important.
Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have
in case you don't succeed.
Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control.
Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence.
You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean.
You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.


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hmmm, most points are true i should say. esp about the job thing. lol.
life is quite mundane to me now,
though i've still got my dearest, family & friends.
but ever since graduation,
it seems like i've lost my goal,
in another words, i've got no sense of direction anymore.


in pri school, it was PSLE,
in sec, it was O lvls, pretty stressed being in the top class,
in poly, it was for my diploma. fear of fwding modules.
but now ... ...
what is it ???


maybe i should take up ACCA soonest.
but, this way, am i forcing myself to follow a route?
will anyone out there motivate and lead me for the other half of my life?
ok hold it, im NOT emo okays :D
just some deep thoughts.


in my life, i felt that i've seen plenty people.
people of all types, character.
my worst nightmare are peeps from poly.
well, im glad my worst nightmare is over..
looking forward to the next phase of my life!


to all my loved ones,
once again - JIAYOU for you school/work/life !!
goodbye world,

rainy weather, best for sleeping.
had some hot & delicious Ba Kut Teh,
with my colleagues for lunch.
supposedly was my treat,
but my boss snatched the bill from me -.-


HMMM. today's business so-so.
time passed quite fast.
dad's coming to pick me up in 20mins.
thanks for ppl who chatted with me on msn.
hehe.


oh well, i'm bored til i wrote out the lyrics of a song.

MapleStory;

THEY are married, widowed, divorced - all before they are even old enough to get a provisional driver's licence.

Teen gamers at MapleStory, a massively multiplayer online role-playing game (MMORPG), get hitched at the rate of a couple a day in a range of weddings that cost between $30 and $40.

As part of the game, they can buy wedding tickets - cozy, sweety and premium packages - which enable them to receive anywhere between 10 and 60 guests, and obtain virtual wedding rings that add to their avatar's prowess.

for more information :
http://www.straitstimes.com/Breaking%2BNews/Singapore/Story/STIStory_368424.html?vgnmr=1

lol, what a news article that caught my eye early in the morning.
heh. its the start of a new week!!
PAYDAYYYYY :DD

Another Sunday Afternoon - Last Forever

Suddenly I found out what real pain is all about. A heavy heart on my sleeve I wear, but it doesn’t stop this grief. You were like a dream come true—emancipation, old to new. The way we kissed I knew you knew there was magic—on wings it flew.

Only you can stop the pain, drag the sun out and dry the rain. Only you can kiss these tears, wash away my deepest fears. But when the push came to shove, it was only him you loved. Only you don’t want it all—not now, forever, anymore.

There was something about your touch. You loved the way your hair I brushed. We moved together just one night, but you thought it wrong not right. I’d think up a kingdom where you ruled, but you didn’t assume the position. Now I’m scared: Girl of my dreams/My worst nightmare*

Only you can stop the pain, drag the sun out and dry the rain. Only you can kiss these tears, wash away my deepest fears. But when the push came to shove, it was only him you loved. Only you don’t want it all—not now, forever, anymore.

Only you can stop the pain, drag the sun out and dry the rain. Only you can kiss these tears, wash away my deepest fears. But when the push came to shove, it was only him you loved. Only you don’t want it all—not now, forever, anymore.

Not now, forever, anymore.

mornings, i've just downloaded some old songs. like 70+.
jay's fantasy album, jolin's, dashboard confessional's,
five for fighting and more.


sigh, some of these songs kinda reminisce my past.
the times in secondary school,
the times i played maple,
the times i knew so many people.


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YAWNS. 10mins to fang gong,
but i'm staying til my dad reaches.
probably ard 5.15pm or 5.30pm ?
boredddddddddddd.
i've even downloaded QVOD player,
so that when my boss leaves later,
i can still entertain myself with dramas.
lol. i'm getting sick of facebook's games alr.
got to find some nice websites to play or visit.
any intros ppl ? :x


i need more songs too!
ppl who knows my likings pls do introoooo.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
bored.
bored..
bored...
bored....
bored.....
bored....
bored...
bored..
bored.



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mornings !
hmmm, today is my 20th day working @ Maica.
well, so far so good.
stress-free environment, nice colleagues,
light workload.
i'm really glad that i made this choice,
to work here where i learnt plenty,
rather than in town or some big firm,
where my learning might be minimal.


although i'll get get from bed daily with bulging eyes,
super tired dont want to go to work those type of feeling,
but the moment i think of the benefits i enjoy,
i'll have the determination and willpower to prepare for work :)
with music, maximum freedom on usage of the comp,
with the same net spd as home, being able to reach home before 5.30pm,
even with a heavy workload, these benefits sets off everything !
i've noticed some poly mates complained bout their hectic workload,
all stressed up and tired. it sets me thinking,
in the first place, its you yourself who chose to work there,
so why bother to complain ? while working, we must be happy.
else, work so hard end up so frustrated or stress, not worth it.
might as well look for another job ;/


yawns, what should i do now?
i played bejeweled blitz on fb until v bored alr,
maybe i should try to up my poker lol.


oh yeah, yst dear & i went to Tampines 1.
its quite big, but smaller than cwp,
but the shops there are rather similar to vivo.
they got topshop, dorothy perkins, promod,
and the successfully-advertised Uniqlo.
Japan's number one casual clothes brand.


why i said it was successfully-advertised?
because, although i find that its totally exaggerating,
but even before you get to enter the shop,
Singaporeans had to queue up like those designer brands @ town,
for instance, LV, Gucci.
and trust me, the queue was longer than those luxury brands.
their advertisement gave an overwhelming response.
but i have to say, their clothes material are quite worth their price.
t-shirts ranging from 19.90-24.90 for guys are v worth it.
but their bottoms are slightly exp, ard 60bucks for a berms.


yupp, ok lah, i go play some poker alr.
else it'll be a lengthy postttt.
byebye world. lovess.