troubled.
no backup plans for my bdae venue.
turning down seven people on a saturday night.
having irritating dry cough.
wasting my time thinking why would people guess my pw.
looking at myself from other's perspective.
i feel that i've changed, for the worse.
don't ask me why cause i can't give you a reason either.
work is piling, studies are approaching.
i get tired easily, growing fatter too.
oh, i think i lost the livelihood in me,
at least for now.
its not easy to be me, don't try.
how nice if i can just sleep on.
oh, genting was hell fun with my family,
although we didnt have much activities,
but taking a gazillion photos with them,
teaching my mum play daidee,
and ended up playing all night was humorous.
i've found out what type of guy i'm attracted to.
met him thrice. although feifei names him as
a typical paikia, but i dont care, he is cute!
reddish brown emo hair, small eyes, chubby round face,
green striped hoodie, berms, tattoo-ed right calf,
nice pair of sneakers.
not forgetting the two direct eye contacts made.
each time i go genting, i've a different guy hooked in my mind lol damn it.
apart from those fantasizing stupid acts,
my family and i visited the temple located beneath genting highlands.
its like as though you've walked into heaven.
you'll get to see monkey god, zhubajie, buddha, guanyin,
and even the individual gates of hell, from 1st level all the way til 18th.
pretty gross sculptures & mannequins.
i miss the super shiok weather there.
not forgetting the remarkable scenery views.
why is singapore so hot ?!
i almost literally melted when i stepped out of office today.
blah. time for my daily dose of drug.
good night to you all.
One awkward silence and two hopes
you cry yourself to sleep.
staying up, waiting by the phone,
and all I want for this year is for you,
to dedicate your last breathe to me,
before you bury yourself alive.
Don't come home for Christmas,
You're the last thing I wanna see,
underneath the tree.
Merry Christmas, I could care less.
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