i didn't have the motivation to go to work this morning.
because.. i woke up with a sore throat.
and i was really tired.
but i had to come to work,
cause the stocks we indented are arriving today.
had to arrange forklift services & invoice matters.
oh well, i applaud myself for being this responsible :x


anyway, had loads of fun with dear & feifei last night!
dear came to wdls to meet me after i knocked off :D
we took 960 to newton & headed to Waffletown !
feifei was early so he found the place & waited for us :p


We enjoyed dinner, with lots of photos :x
feifei had fish n chips, i had black peppered chicken chop,
dear had fried chicken ! and we shared a plate of waffle :D


had our fill & walked to newton station.
took a train to novena !
as promised, i brought dear to Udders!
oh yeah, sis couldnt make it for our date,
cause she wasn't feeling well :(
TAKE CARE ALRIGHT SIS,
GET WELL SOON MAN!


yeah, and so, ice cream was next on the list.
i had the usual, durian + kopi estacy !
feifei had strawberry + durian.
dear tried chocmarsh & cookies n cream.
thumbs up to chocmarsh !!
i shall eat that the next time.
and i think i eat too much ice cream,
thats why sore throat :(



then we went to United Square's Toys R Us !
had alot of fun there man !
i played hula hoops, and there was this cute personnel,
he was giggling at us luh !
then we were like, "oh shit, so paiseh lah"
and he went, "don't be lah, everyone is young at heart"
HEH. reminiscence man !
dear bought bubbles for me too (:
thanks dear.
whahaha.


was getting late,
dear had sch, me & feifei had work,
so we shared a cab back !
hahaha and we quietly cut the taxi stand queue,
and got away with a funny cabbie :x


went home & played audi with them,
drained npc & nearly fell asleep :x
so we called it a day ard 12.30am.
then went to slp not long after.


some random stuff i'm gonna blog about.
1. dear found this "stalker" link @ facebook.
& look what results i've gotten lol.


2. stevie hoang is a half vietnamese & chinese.
studied music in UK. when am i talking about him?
because he's a really good rnb singer i've ever heard.
"I'll be fine" is repeatedly playing on my playlist now.
come to me for his songs !!! :D



3. i'm feeling very sick right now.
& it's worse to add on the missing you part.
well :(


I'll Be Fine
by Stevie Hoang

its better if we dont speak at all, at all, at all
its better if we dont speak at all, at all, at all, at all

now deep down inside you
know it cuts like a knife
but im too proud to show it
pain in my chest (it feels)
like i lost my breath
she just doesnt know it
so many things that im dying to say
but i cant seem to tell her

its killing me, to know that she wants to leave
but im not gonna beg her to stay (no)
cause i got my pride, im not gonna cry
there wont be no tears falling from these eyes
dont need her to see
that its killing me
so this is what im saying

you dont have to worry about me
girl, i'll be fine
you dont have to call me again
girl, its alright
you dont have to ask me if i'll be okay
girl, i'll be fine
girl, i'll be fine

you aint got to tell me that we can still be friends
you aint gotta make no excuses and pretend
cause i'll be fine, said i'll be fine
there no need to call

its better if we dont speak at all, at all, at all
its better if we dont speak at all, at all, at all, at all

i cant believe, that i fell so deep
and i let my heart so open
now i gotta try, to keep it inside
these words, are better left unspoken

cause i still got my pride, im not gonna cry
there wont be no tears fallling from these eyes
dont need her to see
that its killing me
so this is what im saying

you dont have to worry about me
girl, i'll be fine
you dont have to call me again
girl, its alright
you dont have to ask me if i'll be okay
girl, i'll be fine
girl, i'll be fine

you aint got to tell me the we can still be friends
you aint gotta make no excuses and pretend
cause i'll be fine, said i'll be fine
theres no need to call

its better if we dont speak at all, at all, at all
its better if we dont speak at all, at all, at all, at all

girl i'll be fine (said i'll be fine)
theres no need to call
its better if we dont speak at all

*
*
*

those are the best days of my life.


with love,
F

9:27 AM

said i'm okay,
but i know how to lie.

man of my dreams !
hahahahhaha.


F

8:53 PM

said i'm okay,
but i know how to lie.

pretty clouds.

thanks dear for cheering me up!
thanks sis.abms for listening to me rant!
thanks my beloved music for everything.


i miss you lahhhhhhhhhh.
._.



well maybe, someday we'll meet again.

F

1:53 AM

said i'm okay,
but i know how to lie.

Somthing's wrong because I find the glamour,
in the dark side, in the dark side.


Cheap regrets can't forget falling victim to the debts
still unpaid in my mind


The one and only day has come
I pay for all the bad things I've done


It's gonna take me, you don't know tragedy
I've been to hell and back again to tell
Close my eyes and lay me down to sleep
I fear the worst might be the urgence to explode
And my time is up so...


Why can't I just lie?


Living dead awake, the horror show begins
So pull the curtains over me
Bring on the panic
The uncontrolled and manic
It's a free for all kill them all every last one of them, I don't care.


Suffocate the dreams in my mind
(Well I can't stop believing)
Drown the thoughts that have me confined
(This life is hard to begin)
Gutter dreams as black as the night
No one told me endings a lie



But i still love your great excuse,


F

12:05 AM

said i'm okay,
but i know how to lie.

today isnt a good day for me man.
first, i overslept. that's quite bad enough.
next, i nearly got knocked down by a fking black BM.
then, i accidentally cut myself with a penknife at work.
-.-


i was seriously mad, yet at the same time, dazed.
with that fucker who drove the black BM.
cause when i alighted from the cab,
i saw an approaching super big lorry.
but it signalled and slowed down.
so i reckoned it'll be turning before me.
i crossed the road.


and when i crossed til the middle divider,
i looked for cars on my left,
then this fking black BM appeared out of nowhere on my right.
and fucking horned me as if it was my fault.
please lah, you're on the wrong lane and you wanna horn me?
-___-"



the car was 3-5cm away from my legs i swear.



what if i got knocked down? i wondered.
sigh. life is unpredictable.
p/s: i'm not emo or what, i just need to complain.



last night met up with huijia after work.
to get my dresses from her.
i have to say, i'm quite disappointed with Bonito's dress.
i do admit that i'm fat, but the material & quality,
isnt worth the price leh. quite a let down :(
even the dress huijia sold me was better i guess.
anw, thanks girl, for the meet up (:
get well soon with your wires & device lol! :x



yay, gonna meet dear & sis.abms on thurs !
dear gonna bring us to Waffle Town @ Newton.
then i shall bring them to Udders @ Novena after dinner !
can't wait ! :D
and sis will be meeting me next week,
heading to bugis's silver corner,
to get smth for ourselves.
probably a bracelet or a ring :x
SIS.ABMS :D
like couple sia LOL.


7th may 2009 !



sidenote, i'm gonna go on a strict diet starting today!
no more junk food, no eating after 8pm.
more badm sessions, more running sessions,
100 sit ups every night.
shall give myself a month or two.
SIS, JIAYOU TGT OK.
:D



to dear :
i understand how you feel, really.
and i know saying too much wouldn't really help either,
cause afterall its btw you and him (:
but just .. stay happy.
if you feel that you've set your expectations high,
be prepared for the consequences.
otherwise, lowering a little might give u more happiness?
try it man :D
don't be afraid to love, alright!
and, i'm always here for you mannn.
24/7.
cause i love you (:



I THINK I'M, FALLING FOR YOU.

& when the whole world is wrong,
i'm the only one who's right.


F

10:16 AM

said i'm okay,
but i know how to lie.

10:02 AM

said i'm okay,
but i know how to lie.

9:49 PM

said i'm okay,
but i know how to lie.

4:14 PM

said i'm okay,
but i know how to lie.

10:46 PM

said i'm okay,
but i know how to lie.

8:34 AM

said i'm okay,
but i know how to lie.

finally blogger isnt screwed -.-

of all the times, when i had so much to blog.

anyway. having my tp again later in the afternoon.

like seriously luh, be it pass or fail,

it doesnt matter to me anymore -.-

part of me whispers,

"get your license today, for yourself, for your family,

for the nicest friends you have, for not wasting money,
for, not to see that noob instructor again."

but.

another part of me is just so dead.

zero confidence.

sigh.

i hate this feeling. damn.

Saturday, worked.

then bought lunch to shixiong house.

ate and slacked. ard 3pm+ we left for town.

shixiong decided not to ride bike & go public.

cause the sky was very darkkkkkk.

went to cine to shop for James present.

met up with shixiong's friend, WQ.

and talk about how small this world is.

WQ is actually Stan bro's sec sch senior!!!

like.. wth -.-

anyway, walked around town,

then we got a tee for James at fourskin.

it was a very hilarious tee.

i forgot what were the 10 things written on it.

but the main point is, it suits James totally ! :X

took a train all the way to pasir ris.

then we walked to downtown :o
and James chalet was like all the way in!

had quite a distance of walk that evening.

we had alot of fun there,

even though i knew less than 3 ppl? LOL.

sometimes i really envy NS guys,

especially those with their "die-hard" buddies.

the sense of unity is like so strong.

heh.

alright im gonna catch some sleep first.

shall cont blogging tonight or smth LOL.

sorry for this impromtu post :X

p/s : DEAR JIAYOU FOR YOU PAPER !!!
I LOVE YOU.

F

9:11 AM

said i'm okay,
but i know how to lie.

yay, i've finally got time to stone at work today :D
there are quite a handful of orders today.
and while my boss was out,
i accidentally fell aslp twice -.-
i really need sleep man lol.
and so, after work, went home,
ate dinner then went into coma.
til like 11.30pm? lol.


i think my brother tried his best to wake me up ;x
was too tiredddd. woke up in a goggy mode too -.-
didnt do much too.
played bejeweled, then audi-ed with piggie & boss.
its like 4am now. shall bejewel awhile than slp,
not feeling sleepy leh ._.


sigh, damn worried for tp lah zzz.
i dont wanna failllll.
and, i realised there are a few saved drafts in my email.
dated from 2007 onwards..
were thoughts for him.
sigh. sometimes, all i want is just a simple friendship.
seemed easy yet so hard. almost impossible i guess.
gotta accept & move on!


FOR ANGIE : -
dear, dont get too stressed up over school alright?
though i cannot totally understand what you're going thru,
but at least, yes competition is stiff, results are impt,
but ultimately, you've got to be happy with what you're doing.
i'm sure everybody will get stressed out over projects,
especially if there are problems arising with mates.
take it easy, one step at a time (:

as to your rs, i definitely have no say in it.
but just rmb, heart-to-heart talks are impt.
it might be better if you could talk things out nicely with him,
rather then blog things out, which he might not know.

& lastly, dont be afraid to let your loved ones know you're sad.
because they will always be there for you. i'm sure of that (:
i'm always & will be here too ! :D
love you.


don't be afraid, to fall in love.


F

3:18 PM

said i'm okay,
but i know how to lie.

i'm so happy today!
because ...
i've finally cleared most of my reports !!!
means MORE FREE TIME.
MORE TIME TO SLACK !
MORE TIME TO BLOG !
:D

p/s, i've just thrown all these post-it notes into the bin ! (Y)


woo, last night had alot of fun with dear & feifei!
hahahhaa, after work, dad came to fetch me to mrt :x
then i took a train down to Bugis to look for dear.
she was at the bigbig library doing some research.


and it was my first time there, on the 11th floor !
its SUPER DUPER condusive for studying,
cause you can even hear a pin drop !
and i'm nowhere near exaggeration !!
heh. i combed the whole area for her -.-
but couldnt find, suddenly she appeared out of nowhere,
from the walkway.
she was in a room luh.
and this room has very cool machines !
it works like an OHP cum casette tape player.
can rewind, forward etc.
HAHAHAHA.


then when she was done, we went to Bugis.
TOOK NEOPRINTS HAHAHAHA
we even did F1 to F7 maple faces lor !
damn fun and cool lah HAHAHA.
i'm really happy that maple brought us tgt.


oh ya, feifei joined us shortly and we took neoprints tgt!


then we didnt really take note of the time,
and we were running late !
cause dear was so sweet to make early reservations for dinner.
(p/s: luckily she did else we'll have to join the 10+ ppl Q)
walked very quickly from city hall mrt to suntec ! lol.
and luckily they didnt gave our table away cause we were like 8mins late?
:p


Kuishin-bo's well known for their seafood,
Japanese style.
and their dessert is delicious too !
but their chocolate mousse cannot eat too much,
cfm will get sore throat -.-


yeah, we enjoyed our dinner alot!
laughed and ate alot :x
and then, we took polaroids outside Kuishin-bo!
we had to place our benefit of doubt on passer-bys -.-
luckily the guy didnt spoil the shot with his finger !
booo. but they turned out very pretty ! :D



oh yah, thanks alot feifei for the treat :x
and oh ya, Kuishin-bo do have ladies night too !
hahahah we came on the right dayyyy.
shared a cab home with dear & feifei.
HSH !


yawns, got driving later on.
prolly meeting N for dinner :D
and i swear i'm going to sleep early tonight.
i don't really like to risk falling aslp at work :x
alright, til then !


oh ya, another thing.
i have an imaginary boyfriend xD
because i didnt break the news to my colleagues,
so they all along thought i'm still attached happily.
sometimes its kind of hard to answer their questions,
but, just wack lah haha.
i'm gonna keep this from them,
til the day i leave this company.


MY SECRET VALENTINE :D


Never love a love that hurts,
Never hurt a love that loves.


F

2:38 PM

said i'm okay,
but i know how to lie.