the greater hope i pin on, the greater the disappointment.
i've faced it. my first major failure in life.
something which i felt confident,
in turn receiving great expectations from friends & family.
but it backfired. i failed my TP the day before.


it might sound "okay only lah, its just a test" to some people,
friends and my family encouraged me,
"nvm lah, fail liao take again lor, nx time will pass le"
but thats what all of you treat it as.


to me, i experienced a great blow upon knowing my results.
although the results were obvious. but still.
no test have ever made me felt this way,
having a completely BLANK mind the night before.
except for the turns and parking methods,
i looked around and asked myself, why do i feel so lost?


i felt stupid for mounting my first curb in my life.
of all the times, WHY during TP? :(
i'm not exaggerating but, the culprit was nervousness took ctrl of me.
thanks for the people out there trying to encourage me,
don't worry, i've moved on with it. tho i might harp on it at times.
sigh. i guess there are only a few ppl who can make me smile now.
yeah, only you few.


putting that aside, i'm commencing my first full time job in my life,
on 1st april, 8.30am.
i shall heed my parents advise and take public transport.
tho i'll have to spend much much more time & effort,
getting to a place 5mins away from home. zzz.
hope everything goes well.


just caught a movie with dear just now at cwp.
12 rounds. its a very good movie i must say.
although the storyline is simple.
but the whole plot is very intricate and fascinating.
friends, go catch it :)


to end this post,
shall wish my beloved & all my true friends - all the best & stay happy ! be it work or school ! :)
dear, sis, kor, kwong, bud, huijia, MM, ahpeok.
lovess u all ! x33

1:20 AM

said i'm okay,
but i know how to lie.