As far as I can tell
It's just voices in my head
Am I talking to myself?
'Cause I don't know what I just said


(And she said)
As far as where I fell
Maybe I'm better off dead
Am I at the end of nowhere
Is this as good as it gets?


And now I've been gone for so long
I can't remember who was wrong
All innocence is long gone
I pledge allegiance to a world of disbelief
Where I belong


Sum 41's Walking Disaster best describe my feelings now.


sigh. i've resigned from my job today.
reason being that i cant get along with a typist and,
i cannot take it lying being accused of not doing work,
when here am i, trying my best to finish up the work.


like what huijia said,
i doubt anyone appreciates our hard work,
from ITP til now,
dont mention about appreciating,
no one has even bothered to ask smth like,
"Do you need help? Can you manage the amount of work?"
the only thing comes out from them is ,
"Are you done? This is urgent, please hurry."
:((



i feel soooo unappreciated.
how can they even doubt if im doing work anot.
how can she even ask me to justify the work i've been doing for 7 hours?
its kinda obvious the amount of trust in me.
simply put, i've alr lost the motivation and heart to work for this coy.
so whats the point in staying?



i really hope my parents and bf can understand what i've gone through,
but they cant, cause they weren't there to witness the treatment i've undergone.
i guess only huijia, anna and elsa will understand.
sigh. i feel terrible.
i hope i can spend a lovely and happy xmas tml.
fuck it. please let me graduate soon and get a full time proper job,
and i really pray hard not to meet such colleagues in future.
basic respect is what i expect of from my colleagues. courtesy.
unlike that typist.



school's starting next monday,
results for MA, AFA and ITD are gonna be released.
i swear i'm going to get fucking emo over AFA.
omg i cant believe that i'm still brooding over it!



well. bedtime soon, gotta wake dear up at 5.30am laters.
ps : thanks alot dear for the dress, i love it lots (:
tho' you cant understand what i've went thru but its ok,
at least you were there for me, when i'm on the verge of falling.
love you lots.




MERRY XMAS EVERYBODY. LOVESS.