its been almost a year since i wrote in this space.
been through really alot, on my own recently.
i guess this is the best place to rant,
i dont really have bestfriends to talk to anyway :(
you will never uds what it is like to be lied to in your face.
i have forgiven, but its really hard for me to forget,
especially when you keep bringing up about the topic every now and then.
you lied for something you enjoy playing,
what about me....?
am i that foolish and worthless to you?
i am really trying not to think about it.
but there are times when you're really not being yourself,
which naturally sets me thinking, being sensative again..
i dont know how long this will last.
probably til we stay together.
its our 26th today,
its gonna be a v special month.
because ive decided to stop trying so hard.
yea its sad.
but i feel the worst when things happen.
i shouldn't always be the one giving.
its time for me to take a step back,
and let you take the lead..
perhaps one day you will show me that its all worth it again,
to put in my best for you.
not saying that im gonna stop doing anything,
but yea, just lesser.
small things matters alot to me.
because relationships are made up of all the small little things.
i have changed for you, accepted you for your mistakes,
forgave you for your wrongs, tolerated your temper and scoldings,
i really, have done alot for you.
the reason why im still here is because,
i still love you, and i know you do too.
i cherish so much the happy times we had tgt.
im just hoping.....that you'll see what are the small issues happening and do smth about it.
also.....don't take me for granted.....
happy 26th baby.
i love you.
9:40 AMsaid i'm okay,
but i know how to lie.